Answer My Call

I hear them running,
this is their fall.
Hold on tightly My Dear,
Grab your child for there is fear.
I'll protect you from the screams,
the demons will always taint your dreams
but, my Love, it's your salty kiss-
the one thing i'll always miss...
but i am here just in time
Grab my hand, I'll protect yours and mine.
I need you to stay alive,
through all the terrors, to you, I strive
There is a pain here-
there are demons that weep out fear-
Blood pours into eyes,
and corroding like acid, everything dies.
Your sheild, your sacrifice, I swear i'll be.
This is my heart, you hold the key
And yet, my call goes through
They're all safe, i'm looking for you
You're lost in his selfish kiss
I'm lost in this faulty bliss.
I see the cracks, there they are
Oh my love, our hearts are so far
Grab your child, keep her close
For there is you, with out me,
that saddens me most.
~brittany
3/22/10
((..about a friend...))

the curse and the thirst

it was as though he was born thirsting
born with an unquenchable thirst
for a liquid nitrogen-
for the poison of the soul
alcohol claimed his life,
his all
The thirst is what took him from me
took him and raped him and left him...
broken and addicted
He is so far from me
as the poison courses down his throat,
his beautiful throat,
it sings to his soul,
drowning out my screams,
in his last indulgence
the only one that remains in him
within his longings
His eyes meet mine,
glazed, red, feverish
he closes them
As he brings the bottle to his lips
I take it and I smash it onto the ground
The crash echoes,
the sounds bounce off the caverns between us
"I love you," I scream at him,
"but I can't compete with that!"
Leaving was the hardest thing i could do
as I walked away
my chest collapsed
my body felt lit on fire
burning in this curse
conflicted and angry
I ran down nameless streets
trying to out run my curse
I set myself against abuses
trying to squelch out my love of him
sirens sounded-
lights flased-
almost desperately
I loved him and it was too much for me to bear
a million nights i have gone to sleep
and a million times i have found myself drowning in nightmares
to a broken, hollowed heart...

it seemed as though he was born thirsting,
and i was cursed to love him despite it.
~brittany
12/13/09
((...another random one, i dont really like it though...))

The A.T.

Blistered feet,
one before the other
before the other, another one
open sores, open air
continuing on,
they'll tread worn paths,
they'll be led on
terrible green,
so lush, so pure
so maddening, so still
only the sounds
of footsteps
of breathing
of wasps
instrument a soundtrack
with complaints and wistful dreams
long into the night
and dark are thos nights
spent in filthy shelters
hiding from bears
weight upn tired backs,
holding a burden, a primal need
alng an ancient trail
following dedications past
they continue, on
blistered feet,
one before the other,
before the other, another one.
~brittany
1/6/09
i wish that i could put the proper indents on my poems, makes them broken up more nicely.

In The Rain

The words
drip off my tongue
like a bitter herbal syrup
and fall into your mouth
The rain is falling here,
but i can still see you
This pain is hurting here
but I'll keep it a secret

the machines
grind into my core
making odd beeping noises
and producing a creature
just for you
the rain is falling here
how i fear each drop
the pain, in secret, is here
will it ever stop?

the ocean
creates cascading waves
that crush me into you
and i can't escape you,
do i want to?
the rain is falling here
yet you sheild me from it
the pain, in secret, hurts here
and are you the one to save me from it?

the bomb
explodes over our heads
I am running, trying to find you
as the rubble collides,
as the shrapnel slices
The rain is falling here
and i can see you
the pain, in secret, hurts here
can you feel it?

the rain,
it embraces me
and most willingly
I fall into it
you reach out, grabbing my arm
pulling me back,
holding me

In the rain,
the pain hurts worse here.
~brittany (...4/4/09, just some old poem i found, ha...))