Limb torn Off

I could have fought harder
if i knew you were soon to go
I could have held you near to me
if i knew you'd have your heart broken
in ways i could never protect you from
I can
stop the speculation
and use thses hands of mine to clasp in prayer
as the world crumbles around me

Unsteadily, i move my fingers over
the scars put against your flesh
the remnants of your continuing struggles
Softly, i press my lips against
the wooden cross
and force my tears away
Standing, i now meet your eyes
the body may fail
but the soul hangs on

I could have fought harder
to get to know you more
I could have hale you near to me
to make sense of this pain,
that i feel in my chest because of yours
I can
scream and pray
and force the tears away
as your life slips slowly away from me

shakily, I whisper your name
are you still with me?
are you still a part of me?
quietly, i feel my heart leap
as your tired eyes open
as you whisper my name
laughing, i try to quell my hysteria
yes, you're still here
but for how much longer?

I could have fought harder
Oh God, guide me now
I could have held you near to me
Oh God what is it that i can ask for
so that this pain can go?
I can
pray for you, oh great young love,
pray for the time we never had
pray for those others in pain because of your hurt

Suddenly, i wake and reach for you
you frail hand clasps mine
reassuringly, I whisper your name
it has become my sole prayer
to Jesus, for you
afraid, i stay here still
I love you, i love you
they love you, they need you
God loves you, He has you in his hands

I could have fought harder
but that would have made no difference
I could have held you near to me
but, my love, He holds you in hands
that never let go, can never let go
I can
all i can do
is pray for you

and like a limb torn off,
like my heart wrenched out,
mangled and beaten upon the pavement,
I know you're still slipping away
and all we can do is hope,
and pray
and pray
and pray

and until then, i'll stay,
i'll whisper your name,
oh dear love, i will pray.

~brittany

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