Carpe Noctem

I fell into the night
like a dirty sin
i fell into it
and couldn't willingly take myself out of it

i fell into your tempter's kiss,
locked lips with the devil,
tasted your poison,
felt my soul go into an ice cold shock,
and went to hell because of it

This Daylight Dancer that i am
fell hard into the cold
wallowed in your murky depths
grew pale in the moonlight

And you, my cold devil,
i fell in love with
"come, come with me" i offered
to heal your broken soul
but, full of fear and without glancing back
you turned, disappeared
and you threw me away,
like soiled rags
i was tossed back into day

in my weakness i long for you still,
i long for your icy caresses
and your violent love
in the daylight, i am alone
and i shy away from the shadows
like some kind of penance

so that i will never see you again
and never hold onto your cold again

i fell into the night
carpe noctem, carpe noctem
i was encased in your cold
and i never wanted to leave
but you threw me out
carpe noctem
carpe noctem
but this Daylight soul that i am
seemed never meant to have it

The sun glares down on me
in anger for ever straying
the wind chills me to my core
a constant reminder of you and i
and how terribly i miss you still
"carpe noctem" like some sick joke i tell my self
"carpe noctem," and watch it take your heart and tear it to bits
"carpe noctem"
and feel the cold break you down

how i miss you still, oh devil,
and your sweet lips-
My greatest sin
and my coldest love.

~brittany
6/27/10