21

2 eye lids painted gold
10 around an hibachi table
3 sores on my feet
And countless, countless thoughts of sleep
And zero, zero thoughts of peace
5 messages on my phone
4 from Twitter
1 from Lori
7 minutes til midnight
7 play the trivia game
2 sit on their phones
1 dog distracts the others
2 drinks i consume
1 shot i spit out
And countless, countless times i wonder about him
And zero, zero times do i do a thing about it
20 monsters i have faced thus far
4 years in i was disowned
12 hours ago my father was too busy
3 years of smothering fears
21 dollars in my pocket
And countless, countless times i have failed
And one, just one day i take at a time