The View From Up Here

I can't describe
how I changed my mind
and i know I won't
be able
to apologize for who
I've been up to this
point-

A world class manipulator,
a successful liar
unhappy,
angry, stressed,
always in control-

But the binds that
hold me tight
just got cut.
I severed the ties,
hold their limp strands
in my trembling strands

I can't describe
what caused me to come to mind
the unchaotic life
I've been known to lead.
And I know I won't be able
to apologize for those I've hurt
My words are not capable-
my stomach clenches,
please tell me this isn't
a waste of time.

Shedding the skin
of the slave I've been
into something so high,
I think I've fallen into the sky

And I can't describe
the view from up here
it's terrible and scary
and something i know I'll enjoy

You won't ever know
what changed my mind-
what caused me to fly-
til you get up here with me.
~brittany
(1/29/11)